Today I cried

Today i cried for you....

I miss you so much lately. It has been close to 4 years and i still wish you were in my belly. Sometimes I want to go back and hold you a little longer n the delivery room; sometimesd i want to sing to you one more time.

i thought for sure that these feelings were gone, but then, i went back and read some of the old blogs are realized, I just got better at hiding them.

I guess sometimes, i just want to close up and not talk abotu you to anyone; but then other days, i know that talking about you is the only thing keeping my sanity.

I have this wooden box in my living room, it has all of your things in it; photos, letters to you, cards from your parents and sister to me.

I miss you, so much...